Top of the mountain!

Have any of you tried to climb a mountain? I’m not talking about a hill, but a huge mountain. Achieving greatness or your goals, is like climbing a mountain if you really think about it.

There are lots of things you need to do to prepare for that climb. It also depends on how high that mountain is, or how big your goal is. Sometimes you may even need help/advice from someone to get you through some spots.

But without your foundation and supplies, you will never make it on your way up or stay on top. When climbing, sometimes the path is easygoing, other times it is harder.

Parts of the path will be a breeze, almost too easy. There also may be hills that need to be climbed at first to get to the base of the mountain. Some people even are happy here and that is fine. But to achieve your dreams and goals, you must be willing to keep going.

During that trip upwards you will face many struggles. From people telling you how hard it is, to you facing storms. The emotional side of it can be more draining then the physical at times. Those hills and mountains can be treacherous and if you fall, you may have to look for another route. But it is still possible. With God & hard work, anything is possible!

There will be others who try and fail, while you must keep going. There will be rockslides that can bring you down, but you must be willing to start over. There will be false summits, where you think you are there, but not quite.

You will endure pain, injury, loss, yet gain knowledge! If you don’t learn from your mistakes and move on, you will get held up.

If you decide to wait til better weather, you may never get there. So if you are faced with a huge storm, instead of waiting, you can still be doing something every day to prepare yourself.

If you prepare yourself for the journey then you will have a better chance! No matter what, always keep moving forward and upwards. Never back down or give up. It can take months to years of trying and failing, or as I call it learning, to get where you want to go.

When our current path gets blocked, find another way! Always stay focused on the positives, as those will get you through.

When you finally reach the top, your physical and mental health needs to be ready to handle the pressures you may face. As the closer to the top you get the harder it becomes. But when you reach the top, the joy outweighs all the falls, blocked paths, disappointments, and trials.

I needed to sell my Barrel Horse

So when I was told after my injection to slowly start riding again, I jumped at the chance. Although I knew in the back of my head this was not the right time.

At first I told myself it was because he was a push style and with my hip injury, I really needed a free runner. I also wanted a 1D horse so I can move up a division. So I kept thinking to sell him and slowly look for another one and by that time I would be ready.

It was one of the hardest decisions I have ever made. I’ve had other horses but I had a connection with him. I got the horse when he only had 30 days of riding. I would ride him in an arena and he would run to the gate. He didn’t know how to neck rein, he was pretty flexible though and willing. He never loped before so he would do a crow hop at first til he learned where to place his feet with someone on him. It was by no means an “I don’t want you on me” buck.

I originally bought him for my daughter but they never really clicked. She could ride him but you could tell they just were not meant for each other. So I just kept riding him.

I trained him to where I could shoot a bow off of him, neck rein, move off your leg, carry flags, he won money in the 3D and 4D barrel races. He ran 22-23 in poles when I actually only played around in poles and ran him a couple times. He was easy to catch and just an overall fun horse to ride. He always took care of me! He was one of those horses that were just a joy to ride.

I had other horses I have bought and sold over the years and had no problem. There were some really good ones too. But this one was special!

I was so torn but God gave me strength to do it. I prayed about it for awhile and finally I decided to let go and trust God. This was a decision I made over more than a couple months.

The lady that I sold him to, has an unbelievable story and she is an inspiration. Looking back I know God placed her in my life for a reason and truly grateful I turned down a couple other people. I think she was the right fit.

It made my heart happy that he brought her joy. But I was still lost! I thought I was meant to go buy a free runner so when I was ready to ride I would just be ready. I would find a couple horses but nothing panned out.

I even had told a lady I would take a horse, but wanted to wait til she cleared from the vet. They made her an appointment that week and then when I called the vet, the vet said they cancelled the appointment. I called that lady and she had sold her to someone else. I know God was saving me on that one.

So then I started thinking, that is when I realized why I needed to sell my barrel horse. I didn’t have to sell him. He would have been perfect sitting in the pasture til I was ready.

It wasn’t because I needed a faster horse, it was because God had a plan for me and for that horse. But I know God’s plan is so much greater than mine!

He knew any horse I had, it would have to sit in the pasture for awhile. At the time I still wasn’t thinking I was going to have surgery. I thought I was on the downhill part of that journey. God knew different!

See in our lives God watches over each one of us. He knows what we are going to go through before we do. He knew I would be tempted to ride before I was physically and mentally ready so he took away all of the horses that I could ride.

I sold my barrel horse because I needed time. I needed to learn patience and how to grow both physically and mentally. I had to grow stronger in not only my faith but my body. I needed to help my daughters and enjoy time with them. I needed to focus on the little things in life as a whole picture.

God has put me on a wonderful journey and I know now I didn’t have to sell my horse, but I needed to. I’m trusting Gods plan! When I am ready to ride again, God will put a horse that’s ready in my life.

So for now I am enjoying my colts, family, work, and life! Each struggle we go through ends up a blessing in disguise, if we just open our hearts!

May 2016 dream

I was going through my memories on Facebook and something that popped up that brought back a lot of emotions. It was about my “papa” that I lost. He was a rancher, cowboy, and no matter what, he knew how to put a smile on my face!

“I had a dream last night & I was in a room with a lot of old pictures of my family growing up. A lot pictures of the ranch we grew up on with my nene & papa. All day I have been thinking of him for some reason.

When my grandpa passed away recently, it hit me hard as I was his raccoon. For the first few weeks I would wake before the alarm & I felt his presence, letting me know everything would be okay.

Well I’ve been stressed here lately & this morning, again I was woke up & had this motivation I could not explain. I remember our last conversation we had over the phone before he was sick, & he told me how much he was proud of me for everything with the horses & nursing.

I think the good Lord knew I needed this today as I want to continue to make the Lord happy as well as my family. I know I am not making my own plans, I’m just leaving it up to God as he knows better than I do, what I need. All I know is today I feel blessed to have the life I have, & it’s not easy but I will get where God wants me to go. With that I know in my heart as today he showed me I can.”