Don’t take things for granted

Never take anything for granted! No minute of the day is ever promised. So when you are struggling, remember someone else is wishing they could be in your position.

For those who go to a race and don’t clock to get a check, tip over barrels, still stuck in the 5D, be grateful. There is someone out there that would love the opportunity to be doing what you are doing. They would love to be able to go down that alley or even just ride a horse.

Sometimes our life changes, and so must our plans. Just because you are blessed to do something one day, doesn’t mean you can tomorrow. It doesn’t mean give up, you just have to adjust to your new normal.

This picture means so much to me and reminds me of how blessed I am.

The guy in the back, his name is Pastor Tim Wallace. He served the Lord and meant a lot to many. He is no longer with us. He didn’t lose his battle to cancer, he won. His faith stayed true during his trials and now he’s being rewarded greatly, with no pain!

This horse, Pacer, was another blessing. She was all heart and no matter what I asked, she gave it her all. I didn’t get to ride her but a few years because of an injury from her race track years.

Then there is myself, who loves barrel racing. I was truly blessed as there was a barrel race every night of the week where I live. I had dreams and goals of my own. But it wasn’t what God had planned at that time.

I got in a wreck and almost 2 years later, I am just able to ride a very broke horse. Only God knows if I will ever compete again.

I know that everything works out in Gods timing, but I would love to be able to run down that alley again. I remember those days that I was frustrated when we tipped a barrel or wasn’t clocking. But now, I would love to be able to do that again.

Life changes, faster than what we would like. Our great horses, family, & friends, leave us sometimes without even a warning.

So don’t take anything for granted and enjoy your time on earth! If you love it find a way. If you don’t move on. Life is too short to be worrying and living in the what if’s! Live in the right now! If you can’t do something you love anymore, find the positive in every situation!

Labor Day

“Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward. You are serving the Lord Christ.” Colossians 3:23-24

No two people are alike and we all have special talents. It’s what we do with them, that truly matters! Our jobs are not just a way for bills to be paid.

Take parenthood for example, it’s not done for the pay. I know some get paid, but if it’s about the money, you are in it for the wrong reasons. Parenting is a hard job, that takes dedication, compassion, and faith to get through the times of sorrow. It is probably one of the most difficult, yet rewarding jobs out there.

There are many other professions that people can do. It should not be about how much money we make. It should be about how we can serve others.

You see, any profession, is a service to others as well as God. God let us have those skills to do great things. So if we always try to please our Holy Father, we will continue to do good work.

We should use our skill set for good and not evil. If you go into a profession because it pays good, then you will never truly experience the rewards God has in store.

God watches us every day, and he knows what is in our hearts. If you are working hard and don’t think anyone notices you are wrong! God notices it and he is the ultimate boss! If you make him happy, you will have bigger bonuses than you can ever imagine!

So I challenge each and every one of you, to find what you love! Then make a living doing it, while serving others and the Lord!

Top of the mountain!

Have any of you tried to climb a mountain? I’m not talking about a hill, but a huge mountain. Achieving greatness or your goals, is like climbing a mountain if you really think about it.

There are lots of things you need to do to prepare for that climb. It also depends on how high that mountain is, or how big your goal is. Sometimes you may even need help/advice from someone to get you through some spots.

But without your foundation and supplies, you will never make it on your way up or stay on top. When climbing, sometimes the path is easygoing, other times it is harder.

Parts of the path will be a breeze, almost too easy. There also may be hills that need to be climbed at first to get to the base of the mountain. Some people even are happy here and that is fine. But to achieve your dreams and goals, you must be willing to keep going.

During that trip upwards you will face many struggles. From people telling you how hard it is, to you facing storms. The emotional side of it can be more draining then the physical at times. Those hills and mountains can be treacherous and if you fall, you may have to look for another route. But it is still possible. With God & hard work, anything is possible!

There will be others who try and fail, while you must keep going. There will be rockslides that can bring you down, but you must be willing to start over. There will be false summits, where you think you are there, but not quite.

You will endure pain, injury, loss, yet gain knowledge! If you don’t learn from your mistakes and move on, you will get held up.

If you decide to wait til better weather, you may never get there. So if you are faced with a huge storm, instead of waiting, you can still be doing something every day to prepare yourself.

If you prepare yourself for the journey then you will have a better chance! No matter what, always keep moving forward and upwards. Never back down or give up. It can take months to years of trying and failing, or as I call it learning, to get where you want to go.

When our current path gets blocked, find another way! Always stay focused on the positives, as those will get you through.

When you finally reach the top, your physical and mental health needs to be ready to handle the pressures you may face. As the closer to the top you get the harder it becomes. But when you reach the top, the joy outweighs all the falls, blocked paths, disappointments, and trials.

Letter to my daughter’s

To my daughter’s, who I love more than they will ever know. I pray for you every day and only wish the best!

I hope that you will always follow your dreams and never give up. Life does get rough, but it’s how we handle ourselves through the rough patches that make us who we are.

I pray you keep chasing your dreams and passions! God put you on this earth for a reason, you are special! If you want something bad enough, then work hard and pray harder!

I pray that when things get tough, you will always have someone there that is willing to be your battle buddy!

I pray you have courage and strength when things happen to keep your Faith! Life is not easy and full of people who try to bring you down. People may put you down, yet they do not know what you have been through. Those people don’t matter, as the only one that matters is the good Lord himself! As long as you put him first, you’ll end up right where you are meant to be.

I pray that you never settle for a man who doesn’t treat you right or make you happy. There are millions of men out there, but God put one on this earth for you! But if you settle, you may never know him. So until you find the right man, it’s okay to be single. Having the wrong man in your life is more detrimental then having no man.

I pray that no matter what happens you will always know that I love you and always will! God blessed me with amazing daughters and I am truly happy!

I pray for happiness, health, and prosperity for my girls. You girls are amazing and I know God has huge plans for you. Don’t ever think you do not deserve the best. You are a gift from God and he will get you through anything.

Hip Labral surgery what to expect

I already went over some things to buy, in another post, but there is so much more that went with this surgery.

It is a good idea to have something to keep you emotionally well. You are pretty much helpless for at least the first week and I needed help for awhile after that. There will be many ups & downs that you need to prepare for.

I am a very independent person so this played a toll on me as I was unable to do things I used to do. I went in thinking the surgery was going to be a breeze and I would be hunting within a month.

It was not the case. I was on crutches a little longer than I would like as they said my bones were really soft. I started therapy the next day, but if I could go back I would have asked for Home Health first before outpatient therapy.

It was a struggle to get to and from therapy and someone had to drive me. Home health would have been great for at least 2 weeks to get going before transferring to outpatient. I really didn’t need pain medication, at least at first. But I took them around the clock to make sure.

I didn’t have to take too many medications but they wanted me to take one for sure to prevent bone growth til a little while later.

I recommend a medication planner, or something to keep track of your medications on when you took them and what time. It was fuzzy to me so I had to write stuff down. I would forget if I took it and didn’t want to overdose.

My brain was so fuzzy for awhile and I forgot quickly! It was not a good thing and I worried I wouldn’t get better. I even had problems with my vision and had hallucinations. Now I know not everyone will have the same reaction to the anesthesia, but this is what I went through.

My husband helped me out a lot and I vented to him a lot. Normally I would go ride my horse, but since I could not, I had to find some way to not hold things in. I’m still recovering and mentally and physically.

I also took up journaling, although I was doing that before surgery for a bible study group. This helped when I was just so overwhelmed and wanted to be by myself. It gave me time to reflect.

So it does take awhile and there are ups and downs. Just what ever you do, don’t give up. I have been through a lot of hard times in this journey, but it is all in the baby steps.

I’m now 7 months post op (in a few day) and I still have flare ups, I’m not where I want to be, but I am getting there. I’m off crutches, my vision has returned, I’m not forgetting things like before, and I am still here!

No matter what your struggles are, we serve an amazing God who will get us through our tough times! It does help to talk about it & write it down. I still struggle on days and I’ve had some pain in my right hip since due to compensation as well as right knee. But overall I am slowly on the mend.

Just remember take care of yourself physically and mentally!

“But I will restore you to health and heal your wounds,’ declares the LORD” Jeremiah 30:17

I needed to sell my Barrel Horse

So when I was told after my injection to slowly start riding again, I jumped at the chance. Although I knew in the back of my head this was not the right time.

At first I told myself it was because he was a push style and with my hip injury, I really needed a free runner. I also wanted a 1D horse so I can move up a division. So I kept thinking to sell him and slowly look for another one and by that time I would be ready.

It was one of the hardest decisions I have ever made. I’ve had other horses but I had a connection with him. I got the horse when he only had 30 days of riding. I would ride him in an arena and he would run to the gate. He didn’t know how to neck rein, he was pretty flexible though and willing. He never loped before so he would do a crow hop at first til he learned where to place his feet with someone on him. It was by no means an “I don’t want you on me” buck.

I originally bought him for my daughter but they never really clicked. She could ride him but you could tell they just were not meant for each other. So I just kept riding him.

I trained him to where I could shoot a bow off of him, neck rein, move off your leg, carry flags, he won money in the 3D and 4D barrel races. He ran 22-23 in poles when I actually only played around in poles and ran him a couple times. He was easy to catch and just an overall fun horse to ride. He always took care of me! He was one of those horses that were just a joy to ride.

I had other horses I have bought and sold over the years and had no problem. There were some really good ones too. But this one was special!

I was so torn but God gave me strength to do it. I prayed about it for awhile and finally I decided to let go and trust God. This was a decision I made over more than a couple months.

The lady that I sold him to, has an unbelievable story and she is an inspiration. Looking back I know God placed her in my life for a reason and truly grateful I turned down a couple other people. I think she was the right fit.

It made my heart happy that he brought her joy. But I was still lost! I thought I was meant to go buy a free runner so when I was ready to ride I would just be ready. I would find a couple horses but nothing panned out.

I even had told a lady I would take a horse, but wanted to wait til she cleared from the vet. They made her an appointment that week and then when I called the vet, the vet said they cancelled the appointment. I called that lady and she had sold her to someone else. I know God was saving me on that one.

So then I started thinking, that is when I realized why I needed to sell my barrel horse. I didn’t have to sell him. He would have been perfect sitting in the pasture til I was ready.

It wasn’t because I needed a faster horse, it was because God had a plan for me and for that horse. But I know God’s plan is so much greater than mine!

He knew any horse I had, it would have to sit in the pasture for awhile. At the time I still wasn’t thinking I was going to have surgery. I thought I was on the downhill part of that journey. God knew different!

See in our lives God watches over each one of us. He knows what we are going to go through before we do. He knew I would be tempted to ride before I was physically and mentally ready so he took away all of the horses that I could ride.

I sold my barrel horse because I needed time. I needed to learn patience and how to grow both physically and mentally. I had to grow stronger in not only my faith but my body. I needed to help my daughters and enjoy time with them. I needed to focus on the little things in life as a whole picture.

God has put me on a wonderful journey and I know now I didn’t have to sell my horse, but I needed to. I’m trusting Gods plan! When I am ready to ride again, God will put a horse that’s ready in my life.

So for now I am enjoying my colts, family, work, and life! Each struggle we go through ends up a blessing in disguise, if we just open our hearts!

Second week post op labral tear surgery

Well I can now get on and off the couch and the first part of week 2 I got in my bed and managed to sleep there. I had to take a pain killer as it hurt, when on the bed. But it was another step forward! I didn’t take any hydro-acet during the day, just at night

During the day I took the low dose aspirin still and Naproxen 2x a day to prevent bone ossification. My doctor was very adamant about taking the naproxen. To help with ulcer prevention, I also took medication to help that in the mornings.

I was awake enough to where I decided to work from home. It was not a lot of work, mainly computer work and talking on the phone at times. I didn’t really get off the couch much but did my “ankle pumps” and other exercises therapy recommended.

I noticed my ability to multi-task was non-existent and I forgot things easily. I had to do one thing at a time, which I am not used to. I also had to write stuff down to remind me to do something.

So I was scared that would continue and I would not get better. I was scared that I would be stuck being slow and could not do my job how it should be done.

My therapy went good this week, mainly just stretching exercises. I had a couple bad days but nothing to major. I was still on crutches and the brace. God was getting me through and giving me the strength I needed. I knew that this will pass and I was no longer impatient.

I have learned previously that no matter what, God will get me through threw bad times. I learned that we all have to go through trials to make us stronger. Each one of our journeys are different buy if we have Faith in God, our end result is the same. Yes I am ready to be free of this part of my life, but it is now part of me. I will keep on going.