Never Give up on what you love

“In the day when I cried out, You answered me, and made me bold with strength in my soul.” Psalm 138:3

This was when I was 7 months post op. I am now officially one year post op.

This is a long post.

I won’t lie, after you get hurt sometimes it is hard to get back on or do things you used to do again. Not because you are scared of riding again, but just scared of the unknown and if it will be okay, what the new normal will be, or if the surgery(surgeries) worked. I was nervous today.

But this is what I have been waiting on! I have not barrel raced since September 2016 and it’s been a LONG journey! I know I still have a long journey ahead. But things that are your dreams are worth the rough roads to get there.

My left hip did good, my other hip is a little sore, but with the surgery I compensated by putting more pressure on the right hip.

Sorry I cried, honestly didn’t think my husband was videotaping. But I do want to tell everyone that no matter what you are going through or faced with, if you want something bad enough, never give up! Life is too short to live with regrets. You should never say I can’t, and always say I will. If you are struggling, God will get you through it all. If it wasn’t for the good Lord, I would have gave up a long time ago. He gives me strength to keep going.

I’ve had setbacks, and breakdowns. I just don’t let myself stay there. So if you are going through a tough time, there is hope. You just have to have Faith! Don’t ever give up! If you want something bad enough you will get there if you keep moving forward. It may not be the way you want it to be, but that doesn’t mean you can’t do what you love. You will have setbacks. Just remember those setbacks teach you something and make you stronger! On your journey think of at least one positive in each situation. Remember God has a plan for each one of us and a destiny we could not even imagine. So stay strong and keep focused on what is important.

So for those that don’t know my story, I was in a car accident in 2016. I’m 7 months post op from hip surgery. I sold all my riding horses since the accident so I wouldn’t be tempted before I was able to again. But the doctor recently told me I can SLOWLY start easing into it as tolerated. I was on a horse a few weeks ago, for a few minutes, but really didn’t get to ride. So I took advantage at my moms house. This is the first time I got to actually ride since I sold my little yellow horse last year. (I rode him about 3-4 times for about 15 minutes after I had my injection just around the house.) Then I sold him so I wouldn’t ride and hurt myself before I was meant to ride. I told some it was because I needed a free runner, but really it was God knowing how long of a road I would be on. I prayed long and hard about that as it was a very hard decision. So I am now back to square one again, I still have pain, but not constant. I have flare ups and I’m not 100% but I’m working on it. Keep having faith!

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Brush your teeth (Faith)

I wrote this a few years ago when thinking about faith and feel this is true even today!

As I am sitting here waiting on my food, I heard a lady on the radio talking about brushing her teeth really good before going to the dentist. Then it hit me, our faith is like brushing our teeth.

Most people brush their teeth every day, some multiple times. The reason we do is to keep the bad stuff off our teeth. We go to the dentist when we have bad stuff that we can’t get off our teeth and although sometimes it hurts, it is worth it in the end. Same goes for faith!

Some pray every day, some multiple times a day. Some even go the extra mile and walk in faith and do good unto others, think of this as flossing and mouth rinse.

When we have a problem we can’t take care of right away, we go to the Lord. That is when he cleans us, he cuts the bad out of us and sometimes it hurts, sometimes we lose things we don’t want to, but in the end, we all have a purpose and it is worth it.

We don’t understand some things but we know the pain will not last although at times it feels like it will. So instead of trying to do a “thorough cleaning” shortly before you go to the Lord, cause you know you wont be able to get everything, show faith.

Remember Pray daily, and have faith. Now remember there will be times, where no matter what you do there will still be bad stuff, but always know the Lord is there to help you get through it. Felisha Whitman

Crossroads in life

I’m at a point in my life where I’m kind of stuck at a crossroad. I thank God every day for everything I have as he has provided me so much.

But sometimes I wonder if I meant for more sometimes I wonder if I’m on the right path. Before my accident I thought I knew what I was meant to do. But now there is a possibility that might not happen. I love horses and I know getting back on one is going to take a lot of work for myself. As when I got on my mom’s horse for that short time I was scared.

I don’t know what my journey may hold. I just know that no matter what I’ve got to keep trying. I am trying to live day by day instead of in the what if’s or future as tomorrow is never promised to anyone.

I love my life and if I wore to die today I would be happy. I get to live in the country, have my horses, work at an amazing place, I have wonderful family. I am no longer living in a world of regret.

I know everything happens for a reason and eventually some of those reasons come to light, other times they do not.

I know it’s hard, but I’m learning that just because your path changes directions, doesn’t mean the end. It just means the next road may be a detour and you will end on the same path. Or it could mean that where you end up is greater. God only knows and as long as we trust him, things will work out!

Don’t take things for granted

Never take anything for granted! No minute of the day is ever promised. So when you are struggling, remember someone else is wishing they could be in your position.

For those who go to a race and don’t clock to get a check, tip over barrels, still stuck in the 5D, be grateful. There is someone out there that would love the opportunity to be doing what you are doing. They would love to be able to go down that alley or even just ride a horse.

Sometimes our life changes, and so must our plans. Just because you are blessed to do something one day, doesn’t mean you can tomorrow. It doesn’t mean give up, you just have to adjust to your new normal.

This picture means so much to me and reminds me of how blessed I am.

The guy in the back, his name is Pastor Tim Wallace. He served the Lord and meant a lot to many. He is no longer with us. He didn’t lose his battle to cancer, he won. His faith stayed true during his trials and now he’s being rewarded greatly, with no pain!

This horse, Pacer, was another blessing. She was all heart and no matter what I asked, she gave it her all. I didn’t get to ride her but a few years because of an injury from her race track years.

Then there is myself, who loves barrel racing. I was truly blessed as there was a barrel race every night of the week where I live. I had dreams and goals of my own. But it wasn’t what God had planned at that time.

I got in a wreck and almost 2 years later, I am just able to ride a very broke horse. Only God knows if I will ever compete again.

I know that everything works out in Gods timing, but I would love to be able to run down that alley again. I remember those days that I was frustrated when we tipped a barrel or wasn’t clocking. But now, I would love to be able to do that again.

Life changes, faster than what we would like. Our great horses, family, & friends, leave us sometimes without even a warning.

So don’t take anything for granted and enjoy your time on earth! If you love it find a way. If you don’t move on. Life is too short to be worrying and living in the what if’s! Live in the right now! If you can’t do something you love anymore, find the positive in every situation!

Success

Why my success is owed to God because without him I would not be here.

Now many think of success as a big fancy house, car, clothes, and so much more. Success isn’t measured in money, it is all the little things!

Waking up in the morning, getting dressed, eating, and breathing! You don’t realize every day you are here on earth is a success!

Now I have been through some rather hard times in my life. I’ve also made some choices that I wasn’t proud of. But through it all those choices led me to who I am now.

My struggles shaped me, lost my faith and grew my faith. They shook me enough to get back on track. God never let go of me and always was there.

He gave me a friend when I needed it as well as an enemy to strengthen me. He gave me all the tools to mold me to who I am today and he continues to do so for who I need to be tomorrow!

Out of everything I have right now, my biggest success is who I am and what I have today with everything I have been through.

I have an amazing family, husband, kids. Yes everyone is quirky but I love them. I have a roof over my head, food on the table, and clothes on my back. I have a job that has amazing core values, and a great team to work with.

To some my life may seem perfect, I assure you it’s not. I have struggles like anyone. I get down but I have a God who fights for me. He has provided me with a husband, that when I am lost, helps me find myself.

I know everyone has struggles that are different. But instead of focusing on all the negative in your life; focus on the good. Even if it is something small like you put on matching socks for the day!

God will provide for us if we just allow it. You can turn yourself from a negative Nancy to someone who is happy! So start focusing on your successes! Start with the small ones then you will see bigger successes later.

Troubled Times

When we go through troubled times, we need to remember that evil will not win! If we turn to God, he will protect us and carry us through deep water as our enemies can’t swim!

Sometimes we wonder why would God do this to me or make me suffer. Why would God let an innocent person or child pass away. We often hear the answer is, “God will only give you what you can handle.”

I’m hear to tell you that is not the case! Not ALL trials are from God. The devil will try anything to get you to lose faith including making the wrong path seem like an easier road to travel.

God lets us make our own choices, although he already knows the plans for us. Some of the troubles are from choices he tried to get us to not do. You know that little voice in your head saying, “Do not do, or say that!” That’s God trying to protect us.

Now if we refuse to listen, Gods love is so big, that he will still love us through our tough times. When we are weak, he will carry us. When we hurt, he will heal us. He is more powerful than the devil ever will be.

The devil will try to push you over the edge, he will try to break you down. He puts fear and doubts in your mind. He is afraid of what God has in store for each one of us!

Sometimes the biggest battles go to the biggest warriors for God. Not because God wants to punish them, but he knows the blessings will be so huge and the devil is terrified! At times I feel like this is why some leave this earth to early.

God knows that the people that leave this earth too early, in our eyes, have been a blessing to so many others.

They are in heaven where the Devil can’t hurt them, where they have no pain, no sorrow. They are where the devil can’t push them over the edge.

Whose to say, God took them from this earth, to protect them. God knew something we did not, he also knew the future of the mourning will be tough. What we don’t know is the plan.

We just have to trust him that the reasonings are so much greater than the sorrows we may currently face. God is smarter than any of us, so we should not question why. I know it is hard at times.

But he will provide for us, watch over us, and help heal the hurting. God will never leave us through troubled times.

Just like the footprints in the sand, when there was 2 sets. When trouble hit, it went down to one set of prints. That was because God was carrying you through the trials!

So I know times will get tough, and you will want to give up. You want to lash out, hate God & everyone else, I completely understand. No amount of words will make trying times better. I just want you to know that you do have a future.

It does get better, not easier, but better. You will adapt, have a new normal, and survive. It may be the hardest thing you ever face, or preparing you for it.

One thing remains the same, no matter WHAT you are faced with, YOU have the power to overcome it. You can beat the odds and make the devil run. Remember Fear IS a liar, & YOU are good enough. The person you lost, you will see again, and the people they are helping now, through you, will never forget it.

Stay true to yourself, never give up, always have faith, and remember God IS greater than the devil will EVER be!

“The LORD is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble.” Psalms 9:9

Distracted Driving (Not for young kids)

You know it only takes 3 seconds to get into an accident. Most people can’t read a text in less than 5 seconds!

I used to be the type of person that thought I was in control, and I wouldn’t wreck if I drove distracted. I always thought if I slowed down or held my phone up, etc., I wouldn’t get in a wreck. But that is not the case in most instances. I have realized the risks are too high and quit doing it.

It doesn’t matter, whether you have been drinking, on some kind of drugs (including pot), changing the radio stations, or texting and driving! Any of these things distracts the driver from being responsible.

If you sit behind that wheel you are not only putting your life on the line, but those in your passenger seat or others you encounter. I wanted to share this in hopes that you will think twice before getting behind that wheel distracted.

Imagine driving down the road, your phone goes off. You are pretty confident in your ability to drive so instead of pulling over you look down. In that 5 seconds it took you to look down you crossed the center line. As soon as you look up it’s too late, there’s a loud crash! Glass flying everywhere then everything goes black. It feels like it last forever but has only lasted about 30-45 seconds.

When you wake up, the stench of airbags fill your vehicle. You look around and notice the other vehicle in the ditch upside down. You have blood running down your face and on your hands from glass. You manage to get out of the vehicle but can’t find your phone.

You head over to the other vehicle and no one is moving. It is a mother and child. Neither one of them answer, then after about 10 minutes you hear whimpering from the back seat. The child is awake but has severe injuries. They start crying and nothing you do helps. The mom still is not responding. A passerby already called 911 & you are shaking so bad due to adrenaline.

The emergency personnel arrives and they pronounce the mom and fly the child to the hospital. You get to walk away, but completely changed!

Because of your five second mistake, it cost the life of a mother, wife, daughter, sister, friend, and aunt. Her children will have to grow up without a mom. Her husband will have to raise their children by himself. The child will never walk without a limp and will have nightmares the rest of his life. The emergency personnel will have to live forever with the memory of what they had to come up on. All because of a text!

Now this didn’t happen but I have seen & know of many accidents that something similar happened. I know of many who have lost their loved ones or their own lives, have been lost, or forever changed due to distractions while driving.

I’ve seen a lady get hit by a car, horses running into a young person on a horse in a warm up pen, and a few other accidents from texting. I’ve lost friends because of distracted driving and driving under the influence. I’ve seen others who passed because someone was under the influence and didn’t see another vehicle.

You don’t want to be responsible for killing an innocent person and having that image in your mind for the rest of your life! Not only will you have to live with it, the emergency personnel and the other people involved will have to live with it as well.

You think it will not happen to you, but it can! It’s truly sad these accidents could be prevented! It starts with you.

This society makes it hard, as most people feel like they have to respond to text instantly. That’s not what text messages were made for.

If you are not strong enough to not text & drive, put your phone on silent & in the glove box while you are driving. Get a designated driver, put your phone down, It’s not worth the risk!