Crossroads in life

I’m at a point in my life where I’m kind of stuck at a crossroad. I thank God every day for everything I have as he has provided me so much.

But sometimes I wonder if I meant for more sometimes I wonder if I’m on the right path. Before my accident I thought I knew what I was meant to do. But now there is a possibility that might not happen. I love horses and I know getting back on one is going to take a lot of work for myself. As when I got on my mom’s horse for that short time I was scared.

I don’t know what my journey may hold. I just know that no matter what I’ve got to keep trying. I am trying to live day by day instead of in the what if’s or future as tomorrow is never promised to anyone.

I love my life and if I wore to die today I would be happy. I get to live in the country, have my horses, work at an amazing place, I have wonderful family. I am no longer living in a world of regret.

I know everything happens for a reason and eventually some of those reasons come to light, other times they do not.

I know it’s hard, but I’m learning that just because your path changes directions, doesn’t mean the end. It just means the next road may be a detour and you will end on the same path. Or it could mean that where you end up is greater. God only knows and as long as we trust him, things will work out!

Don’t take things for granted

Never take anything for granted! No minute of the day is ever promised. So when you are struggling, remember someone else is wishing they could be in your position.

For those who go to a race and don’t clock to get a check, tip over barrels, still stuck in the 5D, be grateful. There is someone out there that would love the opportunity to be doing what you are doing. They would love to be able to go down that alley or even just ride a horse.

Sometimes our life changes, and so must our plans. Just because you are blessed to do something one day, doesn’t mean you can tomorrow. It doesn’t mean give up, you just have to adjust to your new normal.

This picture means so much to me and reminds me of how blessed I am.

The guy in the back, his name is Pastor Tim Wallace. He served the Lord and meant a lot to many. He is no longer with us. He didn’t lose his battle to cancer, he won. His faith stayed true during his trials and now he’s being rewarded greatly, with no pain!

This horse, Pacer, was another blessing. She was all heart and no matter what I asked, she gave it her all. I didn’t get to ride her but a few years because of an injury from her race track years.

Then there is myself, who loves barrel racing. I was truly blessed as there was a barrel race every night of the week where I live. I had dreams and goals of my own. But it wasn’t what God had planned at that time.

I got in a wreck and almost 2 years later, I am just able to ride a very broke horse. Only God knows if I will ever compete again.

I know that everything works out in Gods timing, but I would love to be able to run down that alley again. I remember those days that I was frustrated when we tipped a barrel or wasn’t clocking. But now, I would love to be able to do that again.

Life changes, faster than what we would like. Our great horses, family, & friends, leave us sometimes without even a warning.

So don’t take anything for granted and enjoy your time on earth! If you love it find a way. If you don’t move on. Life is too short to be worrying and living in the what if’s! Live in the right now! If you can’t do something you love anymore, find the positive in every situation!

Labor Day

“Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward. You are serving the Lord Christ.” Colossians 3:23-24

No two people are alike and we all have special talents. It’s what we do with them, that truly matters! Our jobs are not just a way for bills to be paid.

Take parenthood for example, it’s not done for the pay. I know some get paid, but if it’s about the money, you are in it for the wrong reasons. Parenting is a hard job, that takes dedication, compassion, and faith to get through the times of sorrow. It is probably one of the most difficult, yet rewarding jobs out there.

There are many other professions that people can do. It should not be about how much money we make. It should be about how we can serve others.

You see, any profession, is a service to others as well as God. God let us have those skills to do great things. So if we always try to please our Holy Father, we will continue to do good work.

We should use our skill set for good and not evil. If you go into a profession because it pays good, then you will never truly experience the rewards God has in store.

God watches us every day, and he knows what is in our hearts. If you are working hard and don’t think anyone notices you are wrong! God notices it and he is the ultimate boss! If you make him happy, you will have bigger bonuses than you can ever imagine!

So I challenge each and every one of you, to find what you love! Then make a living doing it, while serving others and the Lord!

Success

Why my success is owed to God because without him I would not be here.

Now many think of success as a big fancy house, car, clothes, and so much more. Success isn’t measured in money, it is all the little things!

Waking up in the morning, getting dressed, eating, and breathing! You don’t realize every day you are here on earth is a success!

Now I have been through some rather hard times in my life. I’ve also made some choices that I wasn’t proud of. But through it all those choices led me to who I am now.

My struggles shaped me, lost my faith and grew my faith. They shook me enough to get back on track. God never let go of me and always was there.

He gave me a friend when I needed it as well as an enemy to strengthen me. He gave me all the tools to mold me to who I am today and he continues to do so for who I need to be tomorrow!

Out of everything I have right now, my biggest success is who I am and what I have today with everything I have been through.

I have an amazing family, husband, kids. Yes everyone is quirky but I love them. I have a roof over my head, food on the table, and clothes on my back. I have a job that has amazing core values, and a great team to work with.

To some my life may seem perfect, I assure you it’s not. I have struggles like anyone. I get down but I have a God who fights for me. He has provided me with a husband, that when I am lost, helps me find myself.

I know everyone has struggles that are different. But instead of focusing on all the negative in your life; focus on the good. Even if it is something small like you put on matching socks for the day!

God will provide for us if we just allow it. You can turn yourself from a negative Nancy to someone who is happy! So start focusing on your successes! Start with the small ones then you will see bigger successes later.

Life is like a flower

We as humans can lose our faith at times, which makes our dreams & goals dwindle, just like a flower. If we don’t nurture our faith, feed our body & soul, & believe; we are just going to die without blossoming.

We have to take take care of ourselves, by eating healthy, excercising, developing good relationships, learning when to let go! If you think of it, not all flowers will bloom.

In fact there are times where some die, so one may become bigger & more beautiful.

Just like in our life, sometimes we lose people, whether it be death or friendships lost. God has to take those out of your life in order to blossom into the person you are meant to be!

Each one of us are meant for greatness, if we just open our eyes & hearts!

Let your light shine!

When I am outside or with anything regarding nature I start seeing things in a different light. Take for example the tree. Their roots have to go deep inside the ground and grow in order to make a strong foundation. I know everybody wants to achieve greatness, reach the top, but before you do that you have to grow your foundation, grow your faith. If you don’t you’re just going to break under pressure. When the devil comes with a storm, just like the tree, you will break in two.

It sometimes takes years in order to get the foundation that you need but it is well worth it. When you do start growing your foundation has to continue to grow as well. You need to nurture it and no matter how big you get, how popular you get, you should always let your light shine. This helps you grow, as you need light to grow stronger.

If you become the champion or the biggest tree, and you don’t let the light shine through; you will also snuff out all the other little trees trying to grow.

They may be your children, or people who look up to you. They need nurturing just like you do. If all they see is darkness, they won’t attain their destiny. So remember, it’s not just you, let the light shine brightly through you.

 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.” Mathew 5: 14-16

Don’t Judge Others

Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?” Mathew 7:3

Too many pass judgement on others, when their closest is full of sin!

There’s a homeless man with a sign asking for food, you think to yourself he’s too lazy to keep a job. Yet you have changed jobs 3 times in the last year. When in reality he was a veteran fighting for this country. He’s seen things he can’t process, so he’s lost not only some of his fellow marines; he’s lost his family. So he’s alone & needs someone to care & love him.

There’s an underage, unwed girl in your town. You think she’s a slut, who you don’t want your daughter hanging out with. Yet when you were younger, you slept with many people yourself. What you don’t know is this girl never got love from her family. Her father is an alcoholic, and beats on her mom. She just wants to be loved. She’s scared yet puts on a front to try to keep from getting hurt.

A large person walks into a restaurant with a buffet, and you make a rude comment. Yet you overindulgence by seeing how much you can eat. This person is trying to lose wait, yet they have a medical condition. They have been called fat all their life and don’t have a strong support system. All they want is society to love them & accept them.

“Accept the one whose faith is weak, without quarreling over disputable matters. One person’s faith allows them to eat anything, but another, whose faith is weak, eats only vegetables.” Romans 14:1-2

A family member comes out they are gay. They are scared but are tired of hiding. Instead of loving them for the person they have always been, you past judgment on them. Just like every other situation mentioned above, you judge others by the way they look, or the sin itself. When you have a closet full of skeletons yourself.

And as they continued to ask him, he stood up and said to them, “Let him who is without sin among you be the first to throw a stone at her.” John 8:7

We feel the need to judge others, although the only one that is meant to is the good Lord himself.

“For the Lord is our judge; the Lord is our lawgiver; the Lord is our king; he will save us.” Ephesians 33:22

We are out on this earth to love others! Guide them on their journey, and show them what Gods love can do for them. We are meant to follow the Ten Commandments, and grow love for Christ!

If we pass judgement on others, the only thing that it is doing is giving people reasons to not like God. Would you want to know & love a God that won’t forgive you for your sins? Our God GAVE his ONLY son to die for each one of US! Not so we can pass hate and judgement; but so we could live and love!

Our life should be full of living! When the time comes, God and only he, will place judgement. We don’t know what anyone else is going through. So instead of tearing others down, build them up.

Troubled Times

When we go through troubled times, we need to remember that evil will not win! If we turn to God, he will protect us and carry us through deep water as our enemies can’t swim!

Sometimes we wonder why would God do this to me or make me suffer. Why would God let an innocent person or child pass away. We often hear the answer is, “God will only give you what you can handle.”

I’m hear to tell you that is not the case! Not ALL trials are from God. The devil will try anything to get you to lose faith including making the wrong path seem like an easier road to travel.

God lets us make our own choices, although he already knows the plans for us. Some of the troubles are from choices he tried to get us to not do. You know that little voice in your head saying, “Do not do, or say that!” That’s God trying to protect us.

Now if we refuse to listen, Gods love is so big, that he will still love us through our tough times. When we are weak, he will carry us. When we hurt, he will heal us. He is more powerful than the devil ever will be.

The devil will try to push you over the edge, he will try to break you down. He puts fear and doubts in your mind. He is afraid of what God has in store for each one of us!

Sometimes the biggest battles go to the biggest warriors for God. Not because God wants to punish them, but he knows the blessings will be so huge and the devil is terrified! At times I feel like this is why some leave this earth to early.

God knows that the people that leave this earth too early, in our eyes, have been a blessing to so many others.

They are in heaven where the Devil can’t hurt them, where they have no pain, no sorrow. They are where the devil can’t push them over the edge.

Whose to say, God took them from this earth, to protect them. God knew something we did not, he also knew the future of the mourning will be tough. What we don’t know is the plan.

We just have to trust him that the reasonings are so much greater than the sorrows we may currently face. God is smarter than any of us, so we should not question why. I know it is hard at times.

But he will provide for us, watch over us, and help heal the hurting. God will never leave us through troubled times.

Just like the footprints in the sand, when there was 2 sets. When trouble hit, it went down to one set of prints. That was because God was carrying you through the trials!

So I know times will get tough, and you will want to give up. You want to lash out, hate God & everyone else, I completely understand. No amount of words will make trying times better. I just want you to know that you do have a future.

It does get better, not easier, but better. You will adapt, have a new normal, and survive. It may be the hardest thing you ever face, or preparing you for it.

One thing remains the same, no matter WHAT you are faced with, YOU have the power to overcome it. You can beat the odds and make the devil run. Remember Fear IS a liar, & YOU are good enough. The person you lost, you will see again, and the people they are helping now, through you, will never forget it.

Stay true to yourself, never give up, always have faith, and remember God IS greater than the devil will EVER be!

“The LORD is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble.” Psalms 9:9

Know Your Why!

Do you have something that you can’t go a day without thinking of? If you have a a dream that is so big it seems impossible, that is your why!

People have many dreams and goals but there is one that God has put in each one of our lives, and that is our purpose. Some never try to reach it as they feel unqualified, but anything is possible with God.

Many have asked, “What if I have many big dreams?” The answer is to pray about it. Think about why do you do, what you do? What has been a goal or dream for a long time, that you can’t quit thinking of. Then ask what is the biggest goal that scares you the most. That is when you find your why.

Your reason or your, “why” will seem like a mountain to get to. But God has equipped you to make that climb.

Now I want you to look in the mirror. That reflection you see is your biggest challenge. You have to be the one that stays motivated, not anyone else. When you want to slow down; someone else is picking up the pace. You are the main reason whether you reach your dreams or you stop trying.

You have to have a never give up attitude. Become a leader, not a follower. Be willing to take that extra step or two. Be willing to overcome pain and struggles!

There will be hard times, where many people give up. But if you truly are passionate, find a way to keep going! Your purpose on earth is not sitting on the couch.

This life is too short to not live for your why! So find your why, your purpose and start chasing those dreams! Always remember God already know the plans for you. Ultimately you have to choose what path you want to take.

Top of the mountain!

Have any of you tried to climb a mountain? I’m not talking about a hill, but a huge mountain. Achieving greatness or your goals, is like climbing a mountain if you really think about it.

There are lots of things you need to do to prepare for that climb. It also depends on how high that mountain is, or how big your goal is. Sometimes you may even need help/advice from someone to get you through some spots.

But without your foundation and supplies, you will never make it on your way up or stay on top. When climbing, sometimes the path is easygoing, other times it is harder.

Parts of the path will be a breeze, almost too easy. There also may be hills that need to be climbed at first to get to the base of the mountain. Some people even are happy here and that is fine. But to achieve your dreams and goals, you must be willing to keep going.

During that trip upwards you will face many struggles. From people telling you how hard it is, to you facing storms. The emotional side of it can be more draining then the physical at times. Those hills and mountains can be treacherous and if you fall, you may have to look for another route. But it is still possible. With God & hard work, anything is possible!

There will be others who try and fail, while you must keep going. There will be rockslides that can bring you down, but you must be willing to start over. There will be false summits, where you think you are there, but not quite.

You will endure pain, injury, loss, yet gain knowledge! If you don’t learn from your mistakes and move on, you will get held up.

If you decide to wait til better weather, you may never get there. So if you are faced with a huge storm, instead of waiting, you can still be doing something every day to prepare yourself.

If you prepare yourself for the journey then you will have a better chance! No matter what, always keep moving forward and upwards. Never back down or give up. It can take months to years of trying and failing, or as I call it learning, to get where you want to go.

When our current path gets blocked, find another way! Always stay focused on the positives, as those will get you through.

When you finally reach the top, your physical and mental health needs to be ready to handle the pressures you may face. As the closer to the top you get the harder it becomes. But when you reach the top, the joy outweighs all the falls, blocked paths, disappointments, and trials.

Faith over Fear (Recovery)

When you get injured, no matter how big or small, it takes a toll on you. After you have been injured, even illness, your body/mind tends to try to protect itself. It definitely is not an easy task to overcome!

When we are young, we were fearless. Then as time goes by, we learn that things can cause pain and suffering.

After we injure ourselves, we either avoid doing it again, or take caution next time. During these times of trials is when we grow into the person we are meant to be.

Lamentations 3:29-30 “Being rubbed in the dirt can teach us a lesson. We can learn from insults and hard knocks.”

Being injured is definitely is a learning experience! When you get back in the saddle, fear can take over. It’s the devils way of trying to win, as he knows Gods plan for you is great.

Sometimes the fear is too overwhelming and we stop going after our dreams. Other times we doubt our ability. Either that or fear that family or friends have for you, let you decide your future.

When your support system sees you go through something traumatic they are scared for you and don’t want to see you hurt again. This can sometimes be harder to overcome then your own fears.

But you have to remember that no matter what happens, there was a reason. God is going to use you, grow you, and if you just trust in him it will get better. He will give you more than you can handle. But he won’t give you more than HE can carry you through. He knows what you need to get where you are meant to be. Sometimes it is not where we think we should be.

Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

The hardest part about the struggles, is moving on. The fear of the past is always there to let us know that we are not invincible. Life is too short though to stop trying, or wait til later.

There is no better time then the present to work on your dreams! When you are faced with fear, speak in Jesus name! Start talking to God and just asking him to help getting rid of the fear.

Start living each day like it is your last. Would you want to leave this earth without even trying to accomplish your goals and dreams?

My church says, “Dream Big, Pray Hard, & Expect Supernatural Results”!

The road to recovery is truly a hard road. If you stay motivated and don’t focus on the negative and set backs, you will make it through!

“The road to recovery is like a road trip. It is going to be full of mountains, u-turns, curvy roads, breakdowns, & uncomfortable times. You may even have to stop and get directions. But if you never give up and keep going you will get where you are going!” Long Shot Cowgirl

Letter to my daughter’s

To my daughter’s, who I love more than they will ever know. I pray for you every day and only wish the best!

I hope that you will always follow your dreams and never give up. Life does get rough, but it’s how we handle ourselves through the rough patches that make us who we are.

I pray you keep chasing your dreams and passions! God put you on this earth for a reason, you are special! If you want something bad enough, then work hard and pray harder!

I pray that when things get tough, you will always have someone there that is willing to be your battle buddy!

I pray you have courage and strength when things happen to keep your Faith! Life is not easy and full of people who try to bring you down. People may put you down, yet they do not know what you have been through. Those people don’t matter, as the only one that matters is the good Lord himself! As long as you put him first, you’ll end up right where you are meant to be.

I pray that you never settle for a man who doesn’t treat you right or make you happy. There are millions of men out there, but God put one on this earth for you! But if you settle, you may never know him. So until you find the right man, it’s okay to be single. Having the wrong man in your life is more detrimental then having no man.

I pray that no matter what happens you will always know that I love you and always will! God blessed me with amazing daughters and I am truly happy!

I pray for happiness, health, and prosperity for my girls. You girls are amazing and I know God has huge plans for you. Don’t ever think you do not deserve the best. You are a gift from God and he will get you through anything.

Distracted Driving (Not for young kids)

You know it only takes 3 seconds to get into an accident. Most people can’t read a text in less than 5 seconds!

I used to be the type of person that thought I was in control, and I wouldn’t wreck if I drove distracted. I always thought if I slowed down or held my phone up, etc., I wouldn’t get in a wreck. But that is not the case in most instances. I have realized the risks are too high and quit doing it.

It doesn’t matter, whether you have been drinking, on some kind of drugs (including pot), changing the radio stations, or texting and driving! Any of these things distracts the driver from being responsible.

If you sit behind that wheel you are not only putting your life on the line, but those in your passenger seat or others you encounter. I wanted to share this in hopes that you will think twice before getting behind that wheel distracted.

Imagine driving down the road, your phone goes off. You are pretty confident in your ability to drive so instead of pulling over you look down. In that 5 seconds it took you to look down you crossed the center line. As soon as you look up it’s too late, there’s a loud crash! Glass flying everywhere then everything goes black. It feels like it last forever but has only lasted about 30-45 seconds.

When you wake up, the stench of airbags fill your vehicle. You look around and notice the other vehicle in the ditch upside down. You have blood running down your face and on your hands from glass. You manage to get out of the vehicle but can’t find your phone.

You head over to the other vehicle and no one is moving. It is a mother and child. Neither one of them answer, then after about 10 minutes you hear whimpering from the back seat. The child is awake but has severe injuries. They start crying and nothing you do helps. The mom still is not responding. A passerby already called 911 & you are shaking so bad due to adrenaline.

The emergency personnel arrives and they pronounce the mom and fly the child to the hospital. You get to walk away, but completely changed!

Because of your five second mistake, it cost the life of a mother, wife, daughter, sister, friend, and aunt. Her children will have to grow up without a mom. Her husband will have to raise their children by himself. The child will never walk without a limp and will have nightmares the rest of his life. The emergency personnel will have to live forever with the memory of what they had to come up on. All because of a text!

Now this didn’t happen but I have seen & know of many accidents that something similar happened. I know of many who have lost their loved ones or their own lives, have been lost, or forever changed due to distractions while driving.

I’ve seen a lady get hit by a car, horses running into a young person on a horse in a warm up pen, and a few other accidents from texting. I’ve lost friends because of distracted driving and driving under the influence. I’ve seen others who passed because someone was under the influence and didn’t see another vehicle.

You don’t want to be responsible for killing an innocent person and having that image in your mind for the rest of your life! Not only will you have to live with it, the emergency personnel and the other people involved will have to live with it as well.

You think it will not happen to you, but it can! It’s truly sad these accidents could be prevented! It starts with you.

This society makes it hard, as most people feel like they have to respond to text instantly. That’s not what text messages were made for.

If you are not strong enough to not text & drive, put your phone on silent & in the glove box while you are driving. Get a designated driver, put your phone down, It’s not worth the risk!

Hip Labral surgery what to expect

I already went over some things to buy, in another post, but there is so much more that went with this surgery.

It is a good idea to have something to keep you emotionally well. You are pretty much helpless for at least the first week and I needed help for awhile after that. There will be many ups & downs that you need to prepare for.

I am a very independent person so this played a toll on me as I was unable to do things I used to do. I went in thinking the surgery was going to be a breeze and I would be hunting within a month.

It was not the case. I was on crutches a little longer than I would like as they said my bones were really soft. I started therapy the next day, but if I could go back I would have asked for Home Health first before outpatient therapy.

It was a struggle to get to and from therapy and someone had to drive me. Home health would have been great for at least 2 weeks to get going before transferring to outpatient. I really didn’t need pain medication, at least at first. But I took them around the clock to make sure.

I didn’t have to take too many medications but they wanted me to take one for sure to prevent bone growth til a little while later.

I recommend a medication planner, or something to keep track of your medications on when you took them and what time. It was fuzzy to me so I had to write stuff down. I would forget if I took it and didn’t want to overdose.

My brain was so fuzzy for awhile and I forgot quickly! It was not a good thing and I worried I wouldn’t get better. I even had problems with my vision and had hallucinations. Now I know not everyone will have the same reaction to the anesthesia, but this is what I went through.

My husband helped me out a lot and I vented to him a lot. Normally I would go ride my horse, but since I could not, I had to find some way to not hold things in. I’m still recovering and mentally and physically.

I also took up journaling, although I was doing that before surgery for a bible study group. This helped when I was just so overwhelmed and wanted to be by myself. It gave me time to reflect.

So it does take awhile and there are ups and downs. Just what ever you do, don’t give up. I have been through a lot of hard times in this journey, but it is all in the baby steps.

I’m now 7 months post op (in a few day) and I still have flare ups, I’m not where I want to be, but I am getting there. I’m off crutches, my vision has returned, I’m not forgetting things like before, and I am still here!

No matter what your struggles are, we serve an amazing God who will get us through our tough times! It does help to talk about it & write it down. I still struggle on days and I’ve had some pain in my right hip since due to compensation as well as right knee. But overall I am slowly on the mend.

Just remember take care of yourself physically and mentally!

“But I will restore you to health and heal your wounds,’ declares the LORD” Jeremiah 30:17

I needed to sell my Barrel Horse

So when I was told after my injection to slowly start riding again, I jumped at the chance. Although I knew in the back of my head this was not the right time.

At first I told myself it was because he was a push style and with my hip injury, I really needed a free runner. I also wanted a 1D horse so I can move up a division. So I kept thinking to sell him and slowly look for another one and by that time I would be ready.

It was one of the hardest decisions I have ever made. I’ve had other horses but I had a connection with him. I got the horse when he only had 30 days of riding. I would ride him in an arena and he would run to the gate. He didn’t know how to neck rein, he was pretty flexible though and willing. He never loped before so he would do a crow hop at first til he learned where to place his feet with someone on him. It was by no means an “I don’t want you on me” buck.

I originally bought him for my daughter but they never really clicked. She could ride him but you could tell they just were not meant for each other. So I just kept riding him.

I trained him to where I could shoot a bow off of him, neck rein, move off your leg, carry flags, he won money in the 3D and 4D barrel races. He ran 22-23 in poles when I actually only played around in poles and ran him a couple times. He was easy to catch and just an overall fun horse to ride. He always took care of me! He was one of those horses that were just a joy to ride.

I had other horses I have bought and sold over the years and had no problem. There were some really good ones too. But this one was special!

I was so torn but God gave me strength to do it. I prayed about it for awhile and finally I decided to let go and trust God. This was a decision I made over more than a couple months.

The lady that I sold him to, has an unbelievable story and she is an inspiration. Looking back I know God placed her in my life for a reason and truly grateful I turned down a couple other people. I think she was the right fit.

It made my heart happy that he brought her joy. But I was still lost! I thought I was meant to go buy a free runner so when I was ready to ride I would just be ready. I would find a couple horses but nothing panned out.

I even had told a lady I would take a horse, but wanted to wait til she cleared from the vet. They made her an appointment that week and then when I called the vet, the vet said they cancelled the appointment. I called that lady and she had sold her to someone else. I know God was saving me on that one.

So then I started thinking, that is when I realized why I needed to sell my barrel horse. I didn’t have to sell him. He would have been perfect sitting in the pasture til I was ready.

It wasn’t because I needed a faster horse, it was because God had a plan for me and for that horse. But I know God’s plan is so much greater than mine!

He knew any horse I had, it would have to sit in the pasture for awhile. At the time I still wasn’t thinking I was going to have surgery. I thought I was on the downhill part of that journey. God knew different!

See in our lives God watches over each one of us. He knows what we are going to go through before we do. He knew I would be tempted to ride before I was physically and mentally ready so he took away all of the horses that I could ride.

I sold my barrel horse because I needed time. I needed to learn patience and how to grow both physically and mentally. I had to grow stronger in not only my faith but my body. I needed to help my daughters and enjoy time with them. I needed to focus on the little things in life as a whole picture.

God has put me on a wonderful journey and I know now I didn’t have to sell my horse, but I needed to. I’m trusting Gods plan! When I am ready to ride again, God will put a horse that’s ready in my life.

So for now I am enjoying my colts, family, work, and life! Each struggle we go through ends up a blessing in disguise, if we just open our hearts!