I started this blog to share with others, my journey. We each have ups and downs. But during these tests, we have our testimonies. With my journey I have seen my share of trials that I have overcome. My journey is not over yet and still working on accomplishing my dreams! I just hope that by sharing my stories, it may help at least one person in their journey.
This verse is one of my many favorites as it has so much meaning to me. During the trials of the 4 years I was recovering from an auto accident, I went through many trials and even thought I would never ride again. This picture was when I was 7 months post hip surgery and I was at my moms house visiting on vacation. I had sold my barrel horse and had nothing else to ride as they were all too young. I was scared of not being able to ride again, scared it would hurt too bad, and at this point I didn’t realize I lost my confidence in myself. I took a few deep breath’s and the first thing I did when I got on was cry and thank God for allowing me on another horse. I cried not because I was in pain, but because I was happy. I cried because for the first time in a few years I was hopefully on the down hill side of recovery. I knew I had such a long road ahead but with God by my side, I know that he is with you wherever you may go. It’s not easy and there have been a lot of discouraging times, but also so many rewarding times! I’m not back to competing yet, but this will be my first year back. I still am not 100% sure if I will be able to barrel race but God has stuck with me and shown me that I can still ride and for that I am truly blessed! I will not ever take another day in the saddle for granted as you truly do not know when it is your last! So enjoy your time with your horses, love on them, ride them, chase your dreams! Remember do not be afraid as Gods glory is so much greater than ours will ever be! #godisgreat #faithoverfear #roadtothedream #roadtorecovery #donotbeafraid #joshua19 #keepgoing #bethankfuleveryday #horseriding
It’s amazing how God knows what we need in our lives. The last few weeks have been rough leaving me frustrated with myself which made it feel like I was getting farther away from my happiness. I actually prayed Monday morning to guide me and show me how to get back on the right path, before I left for work.
When I seen what I thought to be a dead kitten in the highway lift his head up, my heart took over. I got him picked up and as he sat on my lap with blood dripping out of his eye, it was at that moment I knew this was not my plan. God was using me, although I didn’t know what for, I trusted him. I got to work and put the kitten in a box, which he only liked when I put one of my shirts in it.
But the minute I put him on my lap, he quit shaking, meowing, and snuggled while he slept. I did find him a good home and it was a little sad to see him go. But I came home with a different attitude.
See we are all scared kittens stuck on a highway at one point or another. If we stay where we are at, we are bound to get ran over, but if we have a little faith and trust in God, good things will happen! This little guy trusted me, like I should put my trust in the Lord! He was scared, shaking, and worried, but he allowed me to pick him up to put him in a better situation. Just like we should allow God to Carry us during our toughest times or when we feel stuck & It seems like everything is just trying to run us over. if we trust in him he will pick us up and carry us where we need to go, but we just have to have a little faith. #godisgoodallthetimeandallthetimegodisgood #FaithCanMoveMountains
What exactly is this illness? Is it Gods way of telling us we are failing as human beings & need to turn back to him? Is it truly the end of day’s? Is it just some virus that man created to hide bigger issues from the common working people outside the government? Is it a plot to try to take down America & other countries? Way too many questions that are not answered, yet many may never know!
COVID-19 is a virus that like other viruses can be deadly, but normally is no worse than the flu or common cold. There is testing out there, but one must be cautious as there are other forms of Coronavirus. In fact majority of people have tested positive for the following coronaviruses 229E, NL63, OC43, and HKU1, at least once in their lives. These are not the same thing!! There are a few that are not as frequent including the new Coronavirus- COVID-19.
COVID-19 is mainly respiratory, and the major cases affect elderly and immunocompromised. Although there are some rather healthy individuals that get really sick. Most recover without any incident other than shortness of breath, fever, and not feeling good. Others are not so lucky and have required ventilators and even worse, death! Now don’t get me wrong this virus is serious! But I think that part is the problem is the people in the country have reacted on the fear of the unknown.
There has been stealing, fighting, and hoarding supplies. I still don’t understand the toilet paper issue, as it’s a respiratory not gastrointestinal issue! The elderly who are the most at risk not able to pick up food because too many have already bought all the food and grocery stores are bare! But people who have bought up all the PPE-personal protective equipment are the biggest issue.
Now I know some that are immune-compromised require these items. But then there are some that I see on my way home sitting on their front porch wearing a mask to let their dog out. If you are not an essential employee or don’t have a weakened immune system, you should be staying at home; therefore not needing PPE.
PPE should be for healthcare workers and people who test positive to protect others. Instead some are having to re-use items, or go without! All they want is to protect their patients, and their families! But unable to if they don’t have the right equipment. But there is a light at the end of all of this.
I’ve seen stores open their first hours of business to seniors, shopping local to save smaller businesses, people sewing masks for employees in need, and churches doing online services and even parking lot services! I think if we keep on this track of all the positives and getting back to God we are going to be just fine.
No matter what we are facing, he is the one and only way out of this mess.
“Jesus answered them, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.”
Like 5: 31-32
“On hearing this, Jesus said, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. But go and learn what this means: ‘I desire mercy, not sacrifice.’ For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.”
Mathew 9: 12-13
He will show us the way and the truth. When faced with any crisis our first reaction is the flight or fight response. But a lot of the times we don’t fight with the right weapon! Our biggest weapon is prayer!
So I challenge everyone to start fighting with prayers! Start living by the word of God! We have the 10 commandments for a reason and should be treated as such. We can get through this trial but we have to show some faith.
Just like someone else said if you look around and see what fear has produced, imagine that mustard seed of faith!
I’m probably not the first to tell you how hard it is to overcome your fear. The biggest struggle for anyone is the mental game.
Facing fear is truly scary but the reward to overcoming fear is much greater!
With my wreck getting back to riding horses has been a challenge. So many emotions going through my head: fear of winning, fear of failure, fear of injuries to my hip again, fear of driving. All have their own reasonings but still too much fear can cripple your dreams!
Yes I put fear of winning- sometimes when people win it changes them. They lose sight on their journey and who they are as a person, it becomes about the glory. I am a very humble person and I dont ever want to lose where I came from. I don’t want to lose the precious moments with my kids and husband.
Fear of failure is a huge one for a lot of people and honestly not high on my list. But my reason is I don’t want to let my family down if I don’t win. I do want them to be proud of me and let my kids know it’s okay to dream big! If I take a leap of faith and just focus on one thing and it doesn’t work, I don’t want my family to suffer for it.
Same goes for fear of re-injury. That surgery was brutal & if I get hurt again that would mean another surgery. I don’t know if I really want to put my family through that again. So I have become overly cautious and with that I have lost some of my confidence.
The fear of driving is simple- I was injured driving so this is my greatest fear. If I get to riding good I will have to go places with my horse. Then I would be responsible for his life as well when driving and that is scary! I know it seems so easy and some will think it’s crazy. But this is my biggest hold up is the driving.
Now how must one overcome your fears you may ask? Baby steps- one step at a time and always keep moving forward! Figure out what you are fearful of and conquer your fear!
What are you afraid of? Start out small, for example loping a horse. Go in a small pen, after you are comfortable walking trot a few strides then return to walking. Do this til you are comfortable and extend the trotting time each time til you are trotting circles confident and comfortable. Then do the same for loping. This method can be used for anything.
See the biggest thing about fear is it is a liar! It tries to keep you from attaining your dreams and goals. Every small step is honestly a giant leap!
The devil will try to tell you that you can’t but God will give you the power to prove you can! When you are about to do something scary and those voices are telling you to be afraid and you can’t do it- Don’t Listen! Tell those doubting voices that your God is greater- your passion is greater- your purpose is greater!
You can overcome fear- you can accomplish your dreams!
“I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” Philippians 4:13
So I’m frustrated and I just don’t know where to start. I’m overwhelmed and with no answers, it is scary.
It’s scary not knowing what my daughter can or can’t eat. Or if she will go into anaphylactic shock for eating something she shouldn’t.
I think The biggest thing is the unknown. Everything is just so new and only 2 doctors are really studying what she has, so it is scary.
One minute she was enjoying hotdogs & hamburgers the next we found out they were making her sick. So that’s another I struggle I deal with. I was feeding my child something that was hurting her, without even knowing.
How can something so tiny cause that much trouble? Some say the government trials, others say it’s been around but no one knew about it. All I know is it is now a part of my family’s life. We have to make life changes which can be very trying!
Sometimes we have to cook two different meals, while others we try new things. I have to not only watch but teach her what to watch for. We have to make sure she doesn’t feel left out and provide education to her school, friends, and other family.
This is a life altering & can be life threatening diagnosis. There is currently no cure and it can get worse over time. So all I can do is learn as much as possible, ask lots of questions, and most of all, provide support for her.
Life changes, we just have to gain more knowledge and move on.
Went to the doctor yesterday and he said she goes back in 3 months. Praying the test is negative as he said it has to be negative 2x before he would let her chance eating any red meat. So if that one is negative she will go back in 3 more months for another test. As you can have false positives.
So she still can’t have any “hairy mammal” meat. He said that sometimes people can go into remission but it is still too new to determine too many details on whether they can safely eat meat. But there are now studies on alpha-gal. So hopefully there will be better answers soon.
She has to be careful about some foods you wouldn’t think have meat byproducts including some medications. But he said Claritin as well as the equate version of liquid Benadryl is okay for her to use.
So a lot of new things. Her tests also confirms her allergy to milk, which we already knew about.
It is hard to change your whole lifestyle, so quick, from one thing that happened. It can be life threatening but so far it’s not. Hopefully we can keep it that way.
So for now we just keep on praying and have faith for healing!
So what exactly is alpha gal allergy. It is an allergy that has been recently discovered that prevents people from eating red meat because an allergic reaction. They are still researching but it has been found to be caused by lone star ticks and chiggers.
So my daughter was diagnosed from a blood test with this allergy test last June 2019.
At first I was shocked but I wasn’t upset because I have faith that everything is going to work out. Yes I want to cry but I was at work so I sucked it up. I couldn’t cry at home because my husband was gone to an archery tournament and I was the only one caring for the kids. I didn’t want her to worry.
It is hard to have to tell your kid she can’t do something, especially when she loves something. When I sat her down she thought I was joking. She just turned 11 and she loves Spaghetti and meatballs, ribs and jerky. She can no longer eat “hairy meats” My daughter was upset but handled it well, and first thing that came to mind for her was no jerky. She handled it better than most adults would and she completely understood what was going on.
There is a chance this can be temporary as long as she doesn’t get bit again.
I have complete faith that God will heal her and this is only temporary. As a little background, she went to running camp and got ate up by chiggers and had a bad blood infection. She was sick for a couple weeks and every since then every so often she gets this rash that looks like a bruise. It was not very frequent so I never put it together that it would be an allergy. She also had stomachaches, headaches, and some minor rashes that looked like dry skin. It never was right after she ate, so when they said that I was shocked.
Now I am a firm believer that the people who are the least educated are the ones who worry the most. Man was I right on that! I started studying and asking and joined some groups to learn more.
But the problem is it is so new that there is not a lot of information. The CDC doesn’t even recognize it as a tick borne illness at this time.
There are some that have this that go into anaphylactic shock, which I am glad she has not. I still don’t believe it, I guess, but I think that just because she will be fine. There is not a cure, but we have a God I give all of our fears and our problems too. I know he is going to get us through.
Although I am still scared it’s not going to go away & she’s going to have a lot of changes. If it gets worse she’s going to have to carry an EpiPen. For only an 11 year old that is a lot but I know there are other kids out there dealing with so much worse. It’s just a rough road, but I know that our God is strong enough to take care of whatever we need. We will know more in a few weeks and I will update as needed but I’ve never thought it would be my child but I’m grateful and a little relieved that we are finally getting answers.
It is a start and I pray God will watch over us. No ma’am what we face there is always a silver lining. We just have to look a little harder at times.
Until more answers, we will pray, and enjoy life. We find a way to move on.
When we get sucked into the judgement of ourselves and others, you will never reach the top. I love this quote:
Put yourself in their shoes but don’t live in them.” Author Unknown
Try to putting yourself in others shoes. As we all struggle with our own battles, health, mental, or maybe financial. Our obstacles that seem like mountains, may be hills to others. But it doesn’t make them any less treacherous.
If someone is rude, that doesn’t make them a bad person. They may have hit their limit on trials and need some positivity.
The impatient mom you see at the grocery store with the kid in the cart, she tried to plan her trip before her kid gets grumpy from needed a nap. she is also running off less than two hours of sleep as her child is teething. She doesn’t get much help from the father either.
The person whose lights are flashing and right at your tailgate to pass you then speed by, may have got a call from the hospital their loved one took a turn for the worst. They are just trying to get there to say goodbye.
The tractor driver in front of you when you are in a hurry, is not wanting to hold you up. They are just trying to get work done to provide for their family and livestock before the weather turns bad.
The person who parks in the handicap spot and doesn’t have any noticeable disabilities; was in a car wreck and messed up their lower back to where it is extremely painful to walk. But there are tired of having to depend on others.
The person driving a brand new truck and trailer, you assume their life is so easy. Yet they put in a lot of time at work, sacrificing time with family, & friends. Or maybe they were in a car wreck and after paying off the hospital bills, decided to do something nice for their family to put up with them during their suffering. They still have struggles as well and are humans too.
See most of our trials are not visible to others. Think about yours? So if we judge people just by the way they look, what they drive, or how they act really doesn’t do anyone justice.
The second part, don’t live in their shoes! Too many people now days want to judge others by their accomplishments, looks, or material things. When they should be focusing on how to better themselves, and help others.
You see if you try to live in someone else’s shoes, you will never find your true purpose.
I thought I always had to win championships and be at the top in order for people to hear what I have to say when it comes to how God has helped me. I love God and what he has done for me and still does for me.
But what is not was not what God wanted. He stopped me in my tracks and showed me so many other things.
I now have seen all sides, from being a nurse for the dying and living; mother, wife, leader, worker, patient. I have faced and still facing the road to recovery from injury, chronic pain, depression at times, other health issues, kids health issues, and financial issues. But God has never once gave up on me! He won’t give up on you either!
He showed me no matter WHO you are or what you have done, your testimony matters. We are each called for a purpose in this life and the only way to achieve that is by moving forward and letting go.
Let go of the negativity towards others. If someone is rude or having a rough time pray for them. You don’t have to physically go up to the person but sometimes that can open doors you wouldn’t dream of.
See I know God loves me. He has spared my life more than I can count. He’s taught me patience, compassion, honesty, & integrity.
I am still human and make mistakes. But I try to see the good in people and focus on the positive. I still don’t know where I am going in life, but I do know, I am right where I am supposed to be at today.
So instead of being another problem, be a solution. Be an example to others by not judging! Try to see things from their perspective.
You know the saying the grass always looks greener on the other side? Well sometimes it may look that way but honestly it’s the same grass you have, they just handle things a little different.
This a tribute to an amazing person who is now in heaven rejoicing and singing praises. We lost a truly amazing person May 3, 2019. She was a warrior, child of Christ, mother, fighter, and so much more!
She was the kind of person that Even though she went through a major fight with cancer and the devil; she never complained. She always had a beautiful smile on her face and put others first. She always took the time to help others in need.
There were times when quitting seemed easier with some of the things I went through but she inspired me, along with many others, to be a better person & always keep going. She had a heart of gold. I just can not say enough good about her.
I struggled a few times and she always knew what to say. Some of her key phrases I remember her telling me is:
Winning: If you are out there trying you may not win the gold buckle but you will be winning. Never giving up will pay off if you keep trying. Winning is not letting the devil take your faith away! Winning is overcoming fear and conquering your demons. Winning is the baby steps you take on your way to greatness.
I was struggling with things after my wreck and not riding horses yet; and at the time she wasn’t riding horses either. She sent me this message and it gave me hope. She never waivered in her faith and was truly inspirational!
The last thing I got was a text from her, as even in her toughest times she still sent out a positive texts on Fridays.
“If you don’t value yourself, don’t expect anyone else to value you. Be the best you God intended you to be and not who the devil hoped you were.” Rpotter
She loved helping others and loved showing what Faith can do. I know many people said at her celebration of life, how she didn’t want anyone to know how sick she truly was. She did it because she didn’t want anyone to lose faith.
I was struggling with sleep and kept having nightmares for almost a month. Then one night, I had a dream with her in it. I sent this to her the next day but never got to tell her the details of the Dream.
“I had a dream about you last night. It was strange. You were at my house and we were talking about life and God. It was actually a very peaceful dream. Which I haven’t been having lately. I really can’t describe it. ”
See in this dream it felt so real, like she was right there. We talked about our kids, husbands, and everything else good going on with our lives. We talked about how God puts people in our lives for certain times, just like Esther. We talked how he protects us and in the end we will be surrounded by a peaceful fog with a huge glorious light shining through from above and we would be lifted up by the hand of God to the golden gates of Heaven.
This dream brought me so much peace and not even sure how it came about.
I will never be able to thank her enough or her family enough for supporting her while she followed Gods dreams for her. She was an amazing person and I just hope I’m at least 1/2 that good of a person. I’ll miss her Sunday morning services before barrel racing, her mentorship, her positive texts, her unbelievable prayers, her faith, her compassion, and most of all her heart. She absolutely loved her family and was so proud of them. Never once did I hear her say anything negative. She will truly be missed but I know I will see her again.
So in honor of her, think positive, be positive, show others positivity; but most of all HAVE FAITH and NEVER GIVE UP! Your problems are all in God’s hands so give it to him and focus on what God wants you to do with your life. As Roxy would say the battle was already won, you just focus on God and doing the right thing and let God handle your problems. Because YOU, YES You, were made for such a time as this!
Have you ever drove down the road and seen trash scattered, or bags to be picked up? Have you seen someone’s vehicle that you can’t sit in because they haven’t cleaned it in years? Well our lives are pretty similar.
Just like the trash scattered all over the roads, we can scatter our “trash” as well. Think of a time you said something to someone that wasn’t nice when you were angry or hurt. Most people do that to try to make themselves feel better, or keep from getting hurt.
When honestly it is not making things better. As that words that got tossed out of your mouth has hurt someone. Just like the trash it can kill or hurt animals or other people.
We don’t think it’s a big deal, as we don’t deal with it. Someone else usually has to come through and clean up the mess.
Now there are times when you get called out for throwing trash out. But that doesn’t mean to keep it bottled up. That can be just as bad.
If we don’t properly handle your trash, it can destroy you. Just like a car that no one cleans out.
If we keep holding things in, whether it’s because too nice or too scared, it doesn’t end well. All their frustrations keep piling up, and they have no release. They have so much built up fear, frustration, disappointments, and negativity, that eventually there is no room for anyone else. Just like the car, if you can’t keep it clean, who wants to ride with you?
Whether you throw out trash, or keep it piled up, there is an answer! The answer is simple: leave your trash at the altar!
The only one that is strong enough to handle our problems or who can clean us up, is God. If we take it to the altar, leave everything there! Don’t throw it out to have others have to clean it up. Don’t hold it inside to build up. Take it to the garbage can and get rid of it!
The altar is there to be our garbage can. All our problems, hate, emotions, struggles, and whatever else we are struggling with.
The altar is there to help us make amends, open our hearts, and minds in order to clean us.
So when we are faced with difficulties, instead of throwing it out the window to affect others, or keeping it bottled up, take it to the altar!
Time to take out the trash and renew ourselves!
I had so much going on last year that I didn’t have time to process much. Between work, kids, and recovering, it really didn’t give me a chance.
Everyone in my family wrote on a piece of paper a goal for the year. The bigger the goal the better. My goal last year was simple, to get stronger so I can ride horses again.
Now I did get to ride a couple times last year for a short time. But the fear of the what if’s took over. Which is crazy as I didn’t get hurt on a horse. I got hurt in a truck. Crazy I know! I seen what it did to my husband and kids when I was not able to take care of myself, and I didn’t want it to happen again. So I became cautious.
With that means putting what I love in a drawer and locking it away. Not really on purpose but I just had something telling me not yet.
Maybe it was me listening to the doctor when he said he didn’t recommend me riding but if I did to wait at least a year. Maybe it was me fearing of what I would accomplish. Maybe it was a fear of what if I am unable to do what I love without hurting myself again.
So many things, yet my life was so hectic I never figured it out last year. During the New Year I did have a chance to reflect.
I know God was telling me not yet for a reason. I trust that he knows best and I should always follow when he tells me to do, or not to do something!
I realize that I am not afraid of horses or riding, I’m afraid getting on the horse and not being able to keep riding. Not of getting hurt, but me not being able to physically ride.
Yes I know it is a crazy thing to be scared of. I should be just thankful I am here, and I know I am blessed. Like everyone else, I have emotions too, and I’m human as well.
We put thoughts in our heads that sometimes keep us out of trouble, but sometimes they keep us from accomplishing great things.
I believe we are all here for a purpose and I know life is too short. So instead of all the what if’s, I am taking the next step.
The next step is actually getting back on a horse, not just for a few minutes. Then continuously riding all year. This is the only way I will know if I can do it still.
I still have back and hip pain, and never got my back fixed. So not 100% sure if my body will handle me riding like I used to. But if I don’t at least try, then I will be giving into what the devil wants. I will be giving into my fears, and for that I need to try!
We have the power to control our lives as God gave us the power to choose. He also gave us the tools to become greater than we are today! Many of us, don’t ever reach our destiny as we stay in the same ruts.
Just like four wheeling, if you keep driving down the same ruts, they will just keep getting deeper. If we keep going down the same path, it only gets harder to get out.
Now I’m not saying it is impossible, as with God anything is possible. But it is easier at times to stay in those ruts as we already know what to expect.
Now imagine going down those ruts, and you start climbing up, just to slide back down. To some it’s scary as they feel like anytime they start getting somewhere, something happens and they slide back down. At that point you have a choice.
One of your choices are to stay in that rut and give up trying. This will lead to despair, regret, anger, and depression. Many people feel they are too weak to go on, or it’s pointless. I’ve been down this road a few times, and it is easy to get sucked back down. I had one person tell me once, if you think you are beaten, then you are. Part of overcoming obstacles is our outlook. Which leads to the other choice and that is to try again!
If you keep struggling and not getting the outcome you want, STOP! Take a step back, and think of what you truly want. The people who are experienced at four wheeling, usually know what to do in situations. Do you know why that is?
They have experienced it, or have learned from someone else who has. They know how to get out of those ruts that suck you down. They don’t go in the mud hole thinking they will fail. They go in with confidence that they will prevail!
For any trial we go through, we should do the same. Face it knowing that we have an amazing God who has the power to perform miracles! I always say this and will say it again: For one negative, think of at least 3 positives.
It’s hard at first, but I promise it makes a difference. I was in a few ruts and didn’t know how to get out. I thought I was stuck and no matter what I couldn’t get out. Then I got stronger, spiritually and mentally. I overcame those obstacles.
I won’t lie and say it’s easy now, as you will always have battles you are faced with. If you seek God, the devil will try to put you in deep ruts, sometimes some that you don’t think is possible to get out of! That is just life unfortunately. What you can control is how you respond to these obstacles.
God has gave us the tools we need to become greater. He’s given us the power to overcome as well as free will to choose. It is on us to figure out if we are going to choose the path meant for us or the path that leads to nowhere. For if we choose God, the end of our road leads to glory, to me that is worth all the struggles!
Most think of Christmas as the time for gifts, feasts, and seeing family they haven’t seen in awhile. Yeah most understand it’s Jesus’s birthday, but don’t honestly know the true meaning. We get stuck a lot on trying to buy the ultimate present. But honestly the best presents in life are not bought!
The best presents I have ever had were ones my kids handmade me. Those gifts were made with Love, you can’t put a price tag on that. Those are the priceless gifts. If I had to rank gifts they would be at the top with only one other surpassing them.
See God knew before Jesus was even born his plans. He knew that his only son would be born in order to save all of us. How can we top that? Jesus Christ was born with a purpose, just like us. God gave us the ultimate present when he gave us his son, Jesus Christ.
Who else could give us the gift of eternal life? All the gifts in the world combined just can’t add up to what God gave us. I don’t even know what we could possibly do to pay him back.
So this Christmas and each Christmas in the future I challenge everybody to remember the true meaning. Like someone told me we will have good Christmas’s and not as good Christmas’s. But the true gifts are the blessings in our lives.
So if you are at a point to be a blessing to others, do so, because you never know when you’ll need a blessing yourself.
Remember blessings do not have to be huge, as the little things are the ones we tend to not forget. Even if it is just being nice to someone, that may mean more than you know.
If you want anything in life, you must work for it. Life is definitely not easy and it is full of trials. These trials are what helps us become who we are. Just as long as we remember that God gives us choices.
If we lose sight on what is good, we may lose sight of who we really are meant to become. But if we keep our eyes on God and the positives, we will continue to grow! Our growth will know no limits, and take us to heights we never dreamed of. The only thing it takes is for us to take the first step!
To be completely honest, I’ve struggled on finding on who I am meant to be. I thought I had it all figured out til my wreck. I was really good the first year, as I wanted to get better, to barrel race again. I had all the motivation and desire, but the pain was too much.
I couldn’t sit for 30 minutes or stand for 10 minutes. I knew that surgery was my next option. I was scared but knew if I wanted to do things I did before, I had to do it.
Surgery was brutal, not only on myself but for my husband and kids. I realized that I wanted to be there for them for the future. So I started babying myself.
Now I did my exercises and worked out and as long as I was doing that my pain with my back was good. So I decided to not fix my back. My hip was sore but nothing like before.
I did that for awhile and finally got back on a horse at my moms. I cried of course, (happy tears) but when I got home I didn’t have a horse to ride. I kept pushing myself to get stronger til my daughter got sick.
She had a blood infection from chigger bites and scared me. I was off work for a week and I let myself stop working out. It took a little while to get her back to where I wasn’t watching her constantly as she had flair ups. Ever since then it has been hard to get back into it.
I had developed a fear of doing things that I used to have so much confidence in the past. But the first step is realizing this. The first step is always the hardest and no matter what anyone says, it is possible!
So I have taken the first step again. This is and will always be an ongoing battle, but I am willing to keep praying and moving forward. I know God has plans for me and he is not done yet.
I am going to get back into exercising every day and working on overcoming fears I have obtained while on this journey. I know life is too short to not be happy. Life is also too short to my love your dreams!
I have a wonderful life and truly blessed right now, but I know God has bigger plans for me. For that I will take my first steps, to greatness! Each step may not be easy but at least it is forward motion!
I’ve been blessed to meet and spend some time with a lot of the girls that are going to the NFR this year. They are truly amazing.
I have to say before everybody starts in on their couch jockeying, I want to ask you guys if you guys have ever heard of the verse, “He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her”? Now I know the lady in the Bible did less than desirable things, but haven’t we all made mistakes? It is not our job to point out others faults.
These girls have worked their butts off! They have made it through blood, sweat, and tears. They have endured mental and physical exhaustion, pain, loss of loved ones, and broken bones just to be able to do what they love, what God called them for. See we’re all unique, each and everyone of us. We are all bound for greatness if we just trust God and follow his path. The girls I have met, their faith is strong and they honestly love to encourage others. They don’t like to tear people down, they work together although they’re competing for the same prize. They would love to get that gold buckle, but to get to heaven is so much more rewarding. They have put in miles upon miles, they have missed family gatherings, birthdays, loved ones. They have always tried to keep a smile on their face even in times of trouble because others are watching them.
What you don’t see is all the hard work that it takes to get where they are behind closed doors. So before you pass judgment realize that no one is perfect, every single person on this earth makes mistakes. I challenge each and every couch jockey out there that thinks that they can do such a better job riding these horses in that arena. I challenge you to get off your butt and do it. Sitting there is not going to accomplish anything, sitting there complaining is not going to make yourself feel better, sitting there will prevent you from accomplishing what God wants you to do. So instead of being that person who says the girl riding should’ve done this or she should’ve done that, or I could ride that horse better, STOP! I challenge you to start thinking of the positives. I guarantee that each one of those ladies that made it to the NFR don’t criticize others. They know that everybody starts at the bottom and has to work their way up to the top. They have a huge passion for the rodeo and to make the sport better not worse they encourage others and cheer each other on. They are not happy when someone has a bad run. They know at the end of the day gold buckles are just buckles, and true championships is not won here on earth. The true goal is to get to heaven, so instead of criticizing these girls performances, be a light! They are under so much stress and it’s not all fun going to Vegas, it’s a lot of hard work, it’s grueling and they don’t get sleep. They could definitely use some encouraging words during this time but if you’re still adamant that you can do better than any of these girls then what I challenge you is to get off your butt and do it because actions speak a whole lot more than words, talking is overrated.